Today was the first time EVER walk/jogging shirtless! I've always kept my midriff covered. I'm so self conscious about my body still, even after losing 50 lbs I still see a big me when I am unclothed. *sigh* I took this walk/jog today in an attempt to get pass the FEAR of showing my body. If I truly want to be a part of Team 2 Piece and lay out on the beach with out a cover up this summer I had to do it!! IT WAS SO SERIOUS ... so serious, in fact, that I had what felt like an anxiety or panic attack when I walked through my apartment complex and on to the street!
The first 5-10 minutes of my walk/jog I felt like I was on display. I thought EVERY car that passed was staring at me and making remarks about my imperfect body.
Although I'm working on my abs (see the frame work? PROUD), the slimming down of excess fat and ridding my body of those back and side creases show there is still SO much to be done to this body. *
REWIND* Ok, lets go back about 16 months ago ...
Yes, that was me ... 50 lbs heavier. I am ever so thankful for a healthier lifestyle. So you see, this is where I came from and I have yet to truly embrace the "new" me.
I know by now you're wondering WHAT is the correlation between
FITNESS AND PRAISE! Well, I remember when I was a 'Babe in Christ' ... my early 20's to be exact, how I would limit my praise for fear of people staring at me. I didn't want them to say I was faking or ridicule how I praised so I kept to the bare minimum (Thank You Father for not keeping to the bare minimum with me). Then one Sunday, while singing with the Choir of Joy, the Spirit hit me and moved through me in such a way that I'd never be the same again! It was that day, in my late 20's, that I realized my praise is to please my Father NOT man! It was what GOD thought and felt about my praise and worship that would bring me favor, grace and mercy NOT what man thought or felt. This is the mind set I had to use while I was walking shirtless today.
So after I listened to my BIBLE APP, the Book of John, and spoke to my Father ALL WAS WELL! YES my body is imperfect but it's a lot better than where it was 16 months ago. YES I still have work to do but look at the progress I've made thus far. This healthy lifestyle change is for me, those I love and who love me. I want to be here as long as I possibly can, making a health issue less of a factor in my earth leaving event. I want to show my Father how grateful I am for this temple He has graciously provided me by taking the best care that I can.
I have to admit, it was the BEST walk ever! Since my abs were out I had to keep my core extremely tight to prevent looking flabby as I walked. I wanted it to be over quickly so my pace was hurried and that put fire to my quads, hamstrings and gluts. After the first 30 minutes my muscles were ON FIRE, they were letting me know they were not happy with me but all I could think about was we were ALL unhappy at that moment. That didn't last much longer, thank goodness! When everything you do is done to please the Father nothing else really matters! My FITNESS AND MY PRAISE are to glorify all GOD has done for me and in return what I will do in HIS honor.
Although I'm working on my abs (see the frame work? PROUD), the slimming down of excess fat and ridding my body of those back and side creases show there is still SO much to be done to this body. *REWIND* Ok, lets go back about 16 months ago ...
Yes, that was me ... 50 lbs heavier. I am ever so thankful for a healthier lifestyle. So you see, this is where I came from and I have yet to truly embrace the "new" me.
I know by now you're wondering WHAT is the correlation between FITNESS AND PRAISE! Well, I remember when I was a 'Babe in Christ' ... my early 20's to be exact, how I would limit my praise for fear of people staring at me. I didn't want them to say I was faking or ridicule how I praised so I kept to the bare minimum (Thank You Father for not keeping to the bare minimum with me). Then one Sunday, while singing with the Choir of Joy, the Spirit hit me and moved through me in such a way that I'd never be the same again! It was that day, in my late 20's, that I realized my praise is to please my Father NOT man! It was what GOD thought and felt about my praise and worship that would bring me favor, grace and mercy NOT what man thought or felt. This is the mind set I had to use while I was walking shirtless today.
So after I listened to my BIBLE APP, the Book of John, and spoke to my Father ALL WAS WELL! YES my body is imperfect but it's a lot better than where it was 16 months ago. YES I still have work to do but look at the progress I've made thus far. This healthy lifestyle change is for me, those I love and who love me. I want to be here as long as I possibly can, making a health issue less of a factor in my earth leaving event. I want to show my Father how grateful I am for this temple He has graciously provided me by taking the best care that I can.
I have to admit, it was the BEST walk ever! Since my abs were out I had to keep my core extremely tight to prevent looking flabby as I walked. I wanted it to be over quickly so my pace was hurried and that put fire to my quads, hamstrings and gluts. After the first 30 minutes my muscles were ON FIRE, they were letting me know they were not happy with me but all I could think about was we were ALL unhappy at that moment. That didn't last much longer, thank goodness! When everything you do is done to please the Father nothing else really matters! My FITNESS AND MY PRAISE are to glorify all GOD has done for me and in return what I will do in HIS honor.
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